Today we did not get to see Lex, because we had to make sure we signed the papers to say we were adopting him. If we missed this it would put us out another month having to get things signed and translated. With the President still around it made it hard to travel, so we played it safe. As we were sitting eating lunch enjoying ourselves, I couldn't help but think, "What is Lex doing right now?" It will be a long three months (that is when we hope to return) because this thought will continue to arise.
Irina, who has been great, keeps making a statement..."The blind say we will see." This is an interesting place with an interesting history. The history continues to impact the way people think and act today. There is so much truth to this statement just referring to the people here and God, it is too much to write about. So I will stick to this statement and its relation to Lex and us.
As we started on this journey we knew there would be some hard times and difficult decisions. We understand that not everyone comprehends our decision to take on the task of adoption. To be honest, sometimes I wondered myself if we got into something to big for us. Back home and even here we get asked the questions; Why do you want to adopt if you can have kids? Do you need more kids? How can you support a family of 7 with your salaries? People are blind to the opportunity we have been given to change a life forever. People only look at surface situations of us and not the life that can be changed forever. I myself, sometimes have allowed myself to be blinded to the awesome calling God has placed on us to do this.
We continue to have a long road ahead of us. We have more paper work, travel again, more hurdles to jump through, money, and court. This week God has confirmed this decision with me so many times. As you have read in the previous post, the journey was not the easiest. Times with travel and other things here, were not always smooth. But when we had the few hours to spend with Lex nothing else mattered. His cool outfits, his laughter, his smile, the funny noises he makes, and most of all his kisses have made every dollar, paper, test, and trial more than worth it. The hard part was saying goodbye. Abby will find this out the same time you do, but I had to walk away or stop talking many of times to keep from crying. It is tears of joy, for the life I love as my own, and also sadness because yesterday was the last time I will see him for probably 3 months.
We asked our translator how to say "I Love You.". She told us and of course we have no idea how to say it. Then she made the statement that will stick with me for the next few months. She said it does not matter how you say it to Lex. He has never heard someone say that to him and it doesn't matter how you say it...he will know what you are saying when he hears it. Not only the thought of any child having to live a life like this, but now I love this child who has to live this life for the next few months. We have fallen in love with this child, but just knowing he had a life like this is hard to swallow.
So as the saying goes, "The blind say we will see." People question our decision and sometimes I question how we things will work out. I know it is a lot of work, miles, and money. The great thing about it all is...I serve a God who can make the blind see. When He calls us to something he will provide a way. The people here will see how great my God is as he continues to show himself strong. I will trust in God even when I cannot see, because I know he has called me to do this. And one day, the ones who do not understand this will also see, when we arrive in a few months with Lex. They will see a life forever changed, a boy who loves to laugh, loves to smile, and loves to give kisses! That day the blind will see God's greatest and we will look back and see him holding us through it all.
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