9 months today

Lex,

You are 9 months old today. I didn't realize it before, but you were born on October 13, 2010 and we began our journey to you on October 10, 2010. God is so amazing!

 Your daddy preached about you tonight at church. He shared the story of this journey God has put us on to bring you into our family. He started at the beginning and explained the process we have gone through...from the calling God placed on us to our first meeting with you. It was strange to think about what you were doing in that moment as we were all talking about you. I miss you so much. I wish tonight we were celebrating this milestone in your first year of life together. I wish I could hold you tonight and tell you how special you are, how much you've grown, how much you've changed. You have had a tough first year of life, but God has so much more planned for you. He has seen you and chosen you for a special purpose. Your daddy talked tonight about how we are all adopted by God. How he paid the ultimate price for us all, how he has chosen us to be his children. You, sweet boy, have given us such a new perspective on God' love for us. Even as a tiny baby, you have taught us so much what it means to love unconditionally.

Through you, we have learned what God truly means when he said we are a "chosen people". That we are adopted to be His children. As I sit here tonight thinking about you and wishing above all else that you were here with us, I know that God has already adopted you. That you ARE loved. That you ARE wanted. Not just by us, but by the greatest Father anyone could ever ask for. We are so humbled and grateful that God has chosen us to be your parents, but nothing we could ever give you could ever compare to the love God has already shown you. I pray tonight that when you are old enough to understand the unusual journey God took us all on to bring us together, that you will understand exactly how much He loves you and that He "knew the plans He has for you" even before you were born. I love you. I will see you soon.

Love,
Mama