24 days and counting...

This trip has been a long time in the making...almost a year in fact. As we sit here in Seoul, South Korea awaiting our next flight, I am missing my children more than anything else in the world...ALL of them. I miss Mayson, Micah, Colby, and Levi so much it hurts, but I also miss Lex just as much. Everyone kept asking us before we left if we were excited, and the answer, though I didn't always give it so convincingly was YES!! We are beside ourselves with the excitement and anticipation of bring Lex home. God has worked in a miraculous way in the lives of our family to bring this little boy home to us. We absolutely cannot wait to see him this week and get to hold him again after being gone for 3 months. So many questions...so much still to do. On the other side of that same coin though are 4 sweet babies at home wishing Mama and Daddy could be there and us wishing we could too. It's so strange to be so filled with joy and so filled with sadness at the same time.

Let me just say that Daniel and I have the most amazing parents any couple could ask for. They are such a blessing to our family, and honestly without them there is no way we could do this. As much as we miss our 4 at home, we know they are in good hands and will be fine until we get back. It's funny how your heart and your mind often times are in such opposition to each other. My mind knows that my children are fine. That they are probably laughing right now and playing together. Micah and Colby are probably fighting over something or playing house together, and Levi is probably playing with a ball or bat. Mayson is probably outside kicking the soccer ball or running around the block with her dad. I KNOW they are fine, but my heart still wants to be there in those moments to laugh with them, or break up their fight, or throw the ball, or play outside. It's all just such a strange emotion.

The joy of this occasion I know, in the end, will erase any small memory of sadness we feel now. And seeing their new baby brother for the first time will erase it in the memories of Mayson, Micah, Colby, and Levi as well. I can't wait to come up that escalator in Atlanta and see them all standing there. I can't wait to see there faces as they lay eyes on Lex for the first time. This trip has been a long time coming, but there is light at the end of the tunnel, and I know the end will be here soon enough. 24 days and counting....