Today started off very interesting. We were supposed to leave the good ol' Vlad Inn at 8:00 to be there by 10 to see Lex. We did not get to leave the hotel until around 9:15 because the President was staying in a building that is about 50 yards from the front gate. There were military and police everywhere. They weren't letting anyone in or out of the hotel grounds. Finally Irina, our facilitator, got in to get us and then we had to walk about 1/2 a mile down the street to where they made her park her car. They weren't going to let us out at first, but Irina worked her magic and they let us go. She is AMAZING!! She has been such a blessing. She speaks amazing English and is very well-connected. She has made this trip feel so safe and stress free. After we leave, I will continue to pray for her and the work she does. There is truly a special place for her in heaven.
We finally made it to the baby home around 11:00 (only an hour late). We were afraid we would only get to visit for an hour, but we ended up staying until 1:00. I was wondering all morning if Lex would recognize us. Yesterday when we met him for the first few minutes he had this look of terror. He never cried, but he looked scared to death. lol. I guess he was trying to figure out who the heck these people were (especially Daniel being a man) and what were they saying (he does understand Russian). I was really hoping not to see that face today, but to see a face that remembered his mom and dad. They brought him to us bundled up because they said we could take him outside for a walk (bundled up and it was like 80 degrees outside). When I say bundled up, I mean 2 layers of clothes, shoes, and a hat. When they came through the door with him, he looked at us with a look of "Hey. I remember you!" It wasn't a bright smile, but it definitely was not a look of terror :) Thank God for small victories!
We took him outside for a while. I tried to make sure he got to experience as many things out there as I could. Besides the playground stuff, we felt wood, trees, dirt, grass, flowers (mostly he just tried to put them all in his mouth). I don't know how often he gets to go out so I tried to cram as much experience into his short outing as I could. Daniel would call me a nerd and say that's just the teacher in me, but I couldn't help it. It's like he is just this sponge that is waiting to experience this life that we all take for granted. I think back to our other children and how even as newborns we took them everywhere we went--the beach, the ballfield, church, the store, anywhere. I think of all of the experiences they have already had in their short little lives. They know the feeling of sand between their toes, water splashing around them as they swim, the fur of cats and dogs, the feeling of sunshine on their faces. I can't wait to be able to fill Lex's life with those things...to give him those experiences he otherwise would never have. I knew coming here, I wanted him. I wanted to take him far from this place and give him a life, but after today and seeing the way he wanted to learn all about the world around him and getting to share that with him, I can honestly say that I am so in love with this little boy. He has stolen my heart the way all of our children stole my heart when they were born.
After our walk, we went inside to meet with the social worker. This was a very brief meeting in which she informed us of the little info she has about his birth mother. Then.......we got to feed the big boy lunch!!! Needless to say, he ate it all. They feed him from an adult sized bowl, spoon, and cup. I made a mess! At one point I swear he baby signed "more". After lunch, we got to undress him and take some more pics. We actually got to take pics of him in the exact spot where his referral pics were taken. He LOVES being naked. I mean what guy doesn't I guess, but he loves it. He laughed and played like it was the best time he's ever had (he was probably just happy not to be sweating from all those clothes). After a few minutes they came to take him for a nap. We kissed him goodbye and he actually waved Paka (bye) to us before we left. We may get to see him again tomorrow. We aren't sure yet. We have to get to the notary on time to sign the official "We want him." papers. After that, no one can get him except his birth mother. (Hallelujah!!)
I really hope we get to see him tomorrow, but if we don't I know he is going to be okay until we get back. He seems really happy despite his surroundings, and he loves the people at the baby home. Every time any of them walk in the room, he lights up. He smiles at them and they play with him. Everyone there is amazing. It takes a special calling to be able to do the job they do, and they are absolutely amazing. I pray that God will bless them for taking care of these babies as well as they do with what little they have. On top of the great caregivers at the baby home, I know he is in God's hands. I know that is the best place to be. If he is there, nothing can touch him.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Day 2- Our first visit
Today started early for us. We were up by 6:00. It's a 2 hr drive to our destination so we had to get a head start because of the traffic. We had a great Skype with the little ones this morning. It was so good to see Micah, Colby, and Levi and hear their voices. I miss them so much already. It's a strange feeling to be so sad to be away from your children, but at the same time not want to leave because you know you would be leaving one behind. It's pretty tough emotionally.
We went for our first visit today. It made all of the mess we went through yesterday traveling seem like a tiny pebble in the road. I cannot put into words the way it felt to actually see our baby boy for the first time. All of the worrying and fear was gone as soon as I had him in my arms. I wasn't really sure how I would feel when I saw him. Would I immediately feel like he was mine? or Would I feel like I was playing with a baby somewhere like in the nursery at church? I can honestly say without hesitation that as soon I held him, I knew he was ours. I knew God has chosen him to complete our family. He is absolutely perfect!
It took him a few minutes to warm up to us, but after just a little while he was having so much fun. He took to Daniel a lot quicker than he took to me. Maybe because he hasn't seen a lot of men...maybe because he liked Daniel's beard (he was fascinated by this), or maybe they just already have that father/son connection that I prayed for. Whatever the reason, it was so amazing to watch them play. He even gave Daniel some kisses! I prayed for so long that God was not only preparing us, but that He would prepare Lex for our visit. Again God showed how faithful He is! It seemed like Lex had already chosen us just like we had already chosen him. We only got to visit for about 2 hrs. They took him away to eat lunch. I asked if I could feed him, but they said no. Hopefully tomorrow I will get to.
We will get to visit again tomorrow! Can't wait. The President is coming to visit here so the traffic is supposed to be unbelievable so we are not sure if we will get to visit again Friday. I am praying that we do. I am already dreading leaving Lex here. I am going to miss him so much. I know God will keep him safe and take care of him until we can bring him home. Praying for the patience to wait for that day.
We went for our first visit today. It made all of the mess we went through yesterday traveling seem like a tiny pebble in the road. I cannot put into words the way it felt to actually see our baby boy for the first time. All of the worrying and fear was gone as soon as I had him in my arms. I wasn't really sure how I would feel when I saw him. Would I immediately feel like he was mine? or Would I feel like I was playing with a baby somewhere like in the nursery at church? I can honestly say without hesitation that as soon I held him, I knew he was ours. I knew God has chosen him to complete our family. He is absolutely perfect!
It took him a few minutes to warm up to us, but after just a little while he was having so much fun. He took to Daniel a lot quicker than he took to me. Maybe because he hasn't seen a lot of men...maybe because he liked Daniel's beard (he was fascinated by this), or maybe they just already have that father/son connection that I prayed for. Whatever the reason, it was so amazing to watch them play. He even gave Daniel some kisses! I prayed for so long that God was not only preparing us, but that He would prepare Lex for our visit. Again God showed how faithful He is! It seemed like Lex had already chosen us just like we had already chosen him. We only got to visit for about 2 hrs. They took him away to eat lunch. I asked if I could feed him, but they said no. Hopefully tomorrow I will get to.
We will get to visit again tomorrow! Can't wait. The President is coming to visit here so the traffic is supposed to be unbelievable so we are not sure if we will get to visit again Friday. I am praying that we do. I am already dreading leaving Lex here. I am going to miss him so much. I know God will keep him safe and take care of him until we can bring him home. Praying for the patience to wait for that day.
Monday, June 27, 2011
The Neverending Day
WE MADE IT!!! Yep, we made it all the way around the world and boy do we feel like we've been all the way around the world. Our trip started Sunday morning at 10:00am when we left for Atl. We landed in our region at what would have been 6:00 pm Monday night at home. Along the way we had quite an adventure. The airport we flew into in Moscow was NOT the airport we were flying out of to get to Vlad. So Daniel and I...you know the experienced world travelers we are...had to get ourselves through Moscow about 1.5 hrs away to the other airport. This required that we take a train out of the airport to the subway in downtown Moscow. Then we had to figure out how to get on the right metro (subway) to get to another train station to take a train ride to the right airport. Each train ride was 35 min and the subway was supposed to take about 10 min. Weeellll, 4 metros and about 30 minutes later we emerged at the train station to take our last 35 min train ride to the airport. Sounds easy enough right? Problem is EVERYTHING in Russia is written, well, in Russian. If you've ever seen Russian you know it doesn't look anything like the word sounds in English. We were armed with a Russian map that a kind lady had so graciously circled our destinations on. We finally made it, and took off for the last 1/2 of the trip.
First flight= 10 hrs.
Moscow adventure= 2.5 hrs
Second flight= 9 hrs
Did I mention that the entire time we were traveling, it was daylight? Yep, no nighttime for like 48 straight hours. Really weird feeling.
Our coordinator met us at the airport and took us to the hotel. They told us the roads here were awful. Well, awful ain't the word. It took us 2.5 hrs to go about 10 miles. There are NO traffic laws, no lanes, no pavement, and no even roads. It was a very interesting trip to say the least.
Once we got to the hotel, we met a very nice couple from California and ran some errands with them. Our first errand was going to the Ministry of Education to get permission to visit the baby home tomorrow. We were both pretty nervous. The lady asked us some basic "Why did you want to adopt when you already have 4 kids?" questions. The same one a lot of you have asked, only she did it in a much less friendly tone. Russia is a very interesting place. Very different from America, but interesting in its own way.
We are going to bed early tonight. Just ordered room service and plan to hit the sack in a little bit. We have to be ready by 7:45 tomorrow morning to make the 2.5 hr drive to the baby home to see Lex. Can't wait to meet him. God has shown me just in the short time we've been here how he has this baby planned just for us. Can't wait to share it with all of you. We miss you and we love you! Say a prayer for us tomorrow.
Good night from the Vlad Inn!!
First flight= 10 hrs.
Moscow adventure= 2.5 hrs
Second flight= 9 hrs
Did I mention that the entire time we were traveling, it was daylight? Yep, no nighttime for like 48 straight hours. Really weird feeling.
Our coordinator met us at the airport and took us to the hotel. They told us the roads here were awful. Well, awful ain't the word. It took us 2.5 hrs to go about 10 miles. There are NO traffic laws, no lanes, no pavement, and no even roads. It was a very interesting trip to say the least.
Once we got to the hotel, we met a very nice couple from California and ran some errands with them. Our first errand was going to the Ministry of Education to get permission to visit the baby home tomorrow. We were both pretty nervous. The lady asked us some basic "Why did you want to adopt when you already have 4 kids?" questions. The same one a lot of you have asked, only she did it in a much less friendly tone. Russia is a very interesting place. Very different from America, but interesting in its own way.
We are going to bed early tonight. Just ordered room service and plan to hit the sack in a little bit. We have to be ready by 7:45 tomorrow morning to make the 2.5 hr drive to the baby home to see Lex. Can't wait to meet him. God has shown me just in the short time we've been here how he has this baby planned just for us. Can't wait to share it with all of you. We miss you and we love you! Say a prayer for us tomorrow.
Good night from the Vlad Inn!!
Friday, June 24, 2011
The ups and downs and then ups again...
It has been an eventful 3 weeks around the Cook house to say the least...Should I start with Daniel's kidney stone, traveling and then not traveling and then traveling again, or maybe VBS?? I guess it's easiest if I start with the beginning.
Daniel, my husband who never ever does anything halfway, went and grew himself the world's largest kidney stone. When I say big I mean like over a cm. Apparently in the world of kidney stones, that's like Mt. Everest. So needless to say..he was in ALOT of pain. During the course of 2 weeks we made 3 trips to the ER, had 3 procedures that required him to be put to sleep, filled about 10 different prescriptions, and had somewhere around 5 visits to the doctor's office. As hectic as all of this was I learned a lot about our little lives....First, I learned that we have the most amazing group of family and friends. So often so many people around us go overlooked because of the chaos that is our life, but God just made us stop for a while and depend on some of these precious people to get us through this time. We had dear friends that were willing fill in for Daniel several times at church, go out of their way to keep our children during procedures and emergencies, offer to bring us food, or keep me company at the hospital while I waited on news about Daniel. God even spoke to me during VBS. He allowed me to talk with an amazing woman of God in our church who has adopted. She just shared with me so much wisdom and perspective that I needed to hear. She could understand my fears and knew a lot of what I was dealing with without me having to even say it. We are just so blessed to be surrounded by people who genuinely show the love for others that God has called them to.
Second, I learned that God really does order every single one of our steps...
During the kidney stone ordeal, we got a call that we would probably be traveling this upcoming week. Honestly, I was so excited but really freaked out at the same time. Daniel was so sick, and we had no idea when he would be better. We knew we couldn't reschedule our first visit. (It isn't one of those things where you can say "Ummm, sorry. That week just doesn't really fit my schedule. Let's do it another time.") When they say go....you go. So, we just prayed that God would work it all out and put it in His hands. Keep in mind, Daniel is supposed to be preparing for VBS during all of this which is no small chore. Again....we put it in God's hands.
Ok, so a week or so later, we get a call that we in fact are not going to travel this week because there is a typo in our homestudy. (Yes, a typo) The same homestudy that was proofed by at least 3 people, 1 of whom was myself. The next to last line said Mr. and Mrs. Baker instead of Cook. It was a standard blah, blah, blah paragraph that only changes the name with each homestudy and nothing else. Well, our social worker forgot to paste our names in and we all didn't read the whole thing. So, not traveling for at least 2-3 more weeks. Really, really bummed, but really trying to trust God and not question.
.....To be real, I was so very upset. I couldn't understand why all of this was happening. Why was Daniel having such a hard time beating this kidney stone. Why did they tell me I was traveling, and then call me only to say "Not so fast..."? Why did it seem like all of my prayers were just hitting the ceiling? If I'm being completely honest with myself, I was at a point where I didn't know if God was really listening, or was really working, really saw me at all. I mean I knew it in my head, but knowing it in your head and truly trusting God completely in your heart are two VERY different things. So, one Thursday night, at during Micah's t-ball party at the church, I snuck off to the sanctuary. I just felt like I needed to get alone with God and I hadn't been to the alter in a long time. I went in to the dimly lit, silent room and immediately just felt God's presence. I knelt there and poured my heart out to God. I gave him all of my frustrations, and fears, and worries, and questions. I laid them all on that altar, and told Him I was leaving them there. I cried in His presence for the first time in a while. When I left there, I knew He had heard me, that He was listening, and that He did care. When I got home that night, I was reading my Bible and I came across the verse that talks about "walking by faith, and not by sight". Holy moly did I need that one. I remembered something that I had forgotten from the beginning of our adoption journey....
This whole road is a walk of faith for us. We knew from the beginning that we could not adopt our son without a miracle from God. This was in every sense of the word "a leap of faith"and it still is. He is reminding me of that daily, but He also reminds me daily to "walk by faith, and not by sight."
So now the end of our crazy 3 weeks is here, and God is again so unbelievably faithful. Daniel is fine again, VBS went great, and we got a call last Thursday saying we ARE traveling this week, and while I was extremely worried about getting our visas here on time, they are scheduled to arrive tomorrow morning!! Since Friday, we have booked our flights, had a "cultural session" with our adoption agency, overnighted and paid $200 extra for our visas to get into Russia, packed, scheduled babysitters for our children for 8 days, and somehow managed to make it through VBS. It's amazing the things you can do when God is in control!!
We are flying out Sunday (June 26th) from Atlanta and will be in Vladivostok, Russia on Tuesday (June 28th). We are finally going to meet our son Alexsy (We are going to name him Lex). I am excited beyond words. This is so much different that being pregnant. I don't know if I can ever truly express it. (I'll save it for another post on another day). Today, I just want to write down some of the roller coaster memories of our adoption, and look forward to next week when I get to hold my new baby boy for the first time. One of my very good friends said to me today "This is just like child birth. You are going to go through some pain to get him here, but one day he will be here and you won't remember the pain anymore."
Lord,
Thank you God so much for the lessons You have taught me over the past 3 weeks. I am so sorry for the times I have worried, and been angry, and questioned why You weren't doing things the way I thought they should be done. Who am I, Lord, to question Your sovereignty? I trust You completely with this adoption, and with my family. I know Lex is better in Your hands than He will ever be in mine. I know You have every step of and every need of this adoption planned. I thank You that You love me enough to teach me new things and allow me to go through trials that will bring me closer to You. Keep Daniel and I safe as we travel this week. We leave Mayson, Micah, Colby, and Levi in Your hands. Prepare our hearts to meet our son, and prepare his little heart to meet us. Give us favor and go before us in every interaction and situation. Continue to teach me and build my faith in You. I love you Lord. ---Amen
Daniel, my husband who never ever does anything halfway, went and grew himself the world's largest kidney stone. When I say big I mean like over a cm. Apparently in the world of kidney stones, that's like Mt. Everest. So needless to say..he was in ALOT of pain. During the course of 2 weeks we made 3 trips to the ER, had 3 procedures that required him to be put to sleep, filled about 10 different prescriptions, and had somewhere around 5 visits to the doctor's office. As hectic as all of this was I learned a lot about our little lives....First, I learned that we have the most amazing group of family and friends. So often so many people around us go overlooked because of the chaos that is our life, but God just made us stop for a while and depend on some of these precious people to get us through this time. We had dear friends that were willing fill in for Daniel several times at church, go out of their way to keep our children during procedures and emergencies, offer to bring us food, or keep me company at the hospital while I waited on news about Daniel. God even spoke to me during VBS. He allowed me to talk with an amazing woman of God in our church who has adopted. She just shared with me so much wisdom and perspective that I needed to hear. She could understand my fears and knew a lot of what I was dealing with without me having to even say it. We are just so blessed to be surrounded by people who genuinely show the love for others that God has called them to.
Second, I learned that God really does order every single one of our steps...
During the kidney stone ordeal, we got a call that we would probably be traveling this upcoming week. Honestly, I was so excited but really freaked out at the same time. Daniel was so sick, and we had no idea when he would be better. We knew we couldn't reschedule our first visit. (It isn't one of those things where you can say "Ummm, sorry. That week just doesn't really fit my schedule. Let's do it another time.") When they say go....you go. So, we just prayed that God would work it all out and put it in His hands. Keep in mind, Daniel is supposed to be preparing for VBS during all of this which is no small chore. Again....we put it in God's hands.
Ok, so a week or so later, we get a call that we in fact are not going to travel this week because there is a typo in our homestudy. (Yes, a typo) The same homestudy that was proofed by at least 3 people, 1 of whom was myself. The next to last line said Mr. and Mrs. Baker instead of Cook. It was a standard blah, blah, blah paragraph that only changes the name with each homestudy and nothing else. Well, our social worker forgot to paste our names in and we all didn't read the whole thing. So, not traveling for at least 2-3 more weeks. Really, really bummed, but really trying to trust God and not question.
.....To be real, I was so very upset. I couldn't understand why all of this was happening. Why was Daniel having such a hard time beating this kidney stone. Why did they tell me I was traveling, and then call me only to say "Not so fast..."? Why did it seem like all of my prayers were just hitting the ceiling? If I'm being completely honest with myself, I was at a point where I didn't know if God was really listening, or was really working, really saw me at all. I mean I knew it in my head, but knowing it in your head and truly trusting God completely in your heart are two VERY different things. So, one Thursday night, at during Micah's t-ball party at the church, I snuck off to the sanctuary. I just felt like I needed to get alone with God and I hadn't been to the alter in a long time. I went in to the dimly lit, silent room and immediately just felt God's presence. I knelt there and poured my heart out to God. I gave him all of my frustrations, and fears, and worries, and questions. I laid them all on that altar, and told Him I was leaving them there. I cried in His presence for the first time in a while. When I left there, I knew He had heard me, that He was listening, and that He did care. When I got home that night, I was reading my Bible and I came across the verse that talks about "walking by faith, and not by sight". Holy moly did I need that one. I remembered something that I had forgotten from the beginning of our adoption journey....
This whole road is a walk of faith for us. We knew from the beginning that we could not adopt our son without a miracle from God. This was in every sense of the word "a leap of faith"and it still is. He is reminding me of that daily, but He also reminds me daily to "walk by faith, and not by sight."
So now the end of our crazy 3 weeks is here, and God is again so unbelievably faithful. Daniel is fine again, VBS went great, and we got a call last Thursday saying we ARE traveling this week, and while I was extremely worried about getting our visas here on time, they are scheduled to arrive tomorrow morning!! Since Friday, we have booked our flights, had a "cultural session" with our adoption agency, overnighted and paid $200 extra for our visas to get into Russia, packed, scheduled babysitters for our children for 8 days, and somehow managed to make it through VBS. It's amazing the things you can do when God is in control!!
We are flying out Sunday (June 26th) from Atlanta and will be in Vladivostok, Russia on Tuesday (June 28th). We are finally going to meet our son Alexsy (We are going to name him Lex). I am excited beyond words. This is so much different that being pregnant. I don't know if I can ever truly express it. (I'll save it for another post on another day). Today, I just want to write down some of the roller coaster memories of our adoption, and look forward to next week when I get to hold my new baby boy for the first time. One of my very good friends said to me today "This is just like child birth. You are going to go through some pain to get him here, but one day he will be here and you won't remember the pain anymore."
Lord,
Thank you God so much for the lessons You have taught me over the past 3 weeks. I am so sorry for the times I have worried, and been angry, and questioned why You weren't doing things the way I thought they should be done. Who am I, Lord, to question Your sovereignty? I trust You completely with this adoption, and with my family. I know Lex is better in Your hands than He will ever be in mine. I know You have every step of and every need of this adoption planned. I thank You that You love me enough to teach me new things and allow me to go through trials that will bring me closer to You. Keep Daniel and I safe as we travel this week. We leave Mayson, Micah, Colby, and Levi in Your hands. Prepare our hearts to meet our son, and prepare his little heart to meet us. Give us favor and go before us in every interaction and situation. Continue to teach me and build my faith in You. I love you Lord. ---Amen
Sunday, June 12, 2011
I know...it's been a while.
Sorry it's been so long since my last update. A lot has happened in the life of our little family... well, I guess it's not that little :)
Most of you already know that we have received our referral. In adoption lingo that means we have a picture and a name of our baby. A couple of weeks ago, I got a call from our agency with a referral for a beautiful, healthy baby boy. We sent the info. we had to the International Adoption Clinic at UAB. The pediatrician called me back the next day with news that brought me to tears. She could not see ANYTHING that concerned her. Looking at his pictures and reading what little medical info. we had, she was very pleased. I cannot begin to explain the joy that I felt when I heard her say that he "was one of the best referrals she has ever seen come out of that country". Daniel and I have prayed for so many months that he would be safe and healthy and taken care of. God was so faithful and has taken such good care of our son.
Honestly, there have been very few moments in my life where I can say that God has taken the form of a "burning bush" for me. There are so many times I have prayed for him to speak to me that way, but for one reason or another, he usually chooses to whisper to me rather than shout. This was one moment though that he might as well have walked right into my kitchen and sat down for a chat. Whenever I prayed for our son, I always prayed this phrase exactly..."Lord, please let our son be in an orphanage where he is picked up, loved on, and talked to." When the doctor from UAB was talking to me she said, "Abby, based on the measurements he has and how on track he is developmentally, I can tell he is in a good baby home. One where he has been PICKED UP, LOVED ON, AND TALKED TO." When she repeated back to me word for word the prayer that I prayed over our baby for so many months, I lost it. She probably thought I was crazy, but it might has well have been Jesus himself saying "Don't worry. I'm here. I've been here the whole time. I've heard you. I have your baby in my hands and he is going to be okay."
We are going to be traveling in a few weeks to meet our new baby. We still have a LONG way to go, especially financially to bring him home...One thing God has shown me through this whole process so far though is that He is listening, He is faithful, and that it's in His hands-- not mine. My favorite Bible verse is Colossians 1:17: He is above all things, and in Him all things hold together. God gave me this verse shortly before we decided to adopt, and now I know why.
Most of you already know that we have received our referral. In adoption lingo that means we have a picture and a name of our baby. A couple of weeks ago, I got a call from our agency with a referral for a beautiful, healthy baby boy. We sent the info. we had to the International Adoption Clinic at UAB. The pediatrician called me back the next day with news that brought me to tears. She could not see ANYTHING that concerned her. Looking at his pictures and reading what little medical info. we had, she was very pleased. I cannot begin to explain the joy that I felt when I heard her say that he "was one of the best referrals she has ever seen come out of that country". Daniel and I have prayed for so many months that he would be safe and healthy and taken care of. God was so faithful and has taken such good care of our son.
Honestly, there have been very few moments in my life where I can say that God has taken the form of a "burning bush" for me. There are so many times I have prayed for him to speak to me that way, but for one reason or another, he usually chooses to whisper to me rather than shout. This was one moment though that he might as well have walked right into my kitchen and sat down for a chat. Whenever I prayed for our son, I always prayed this phrase exactly..."Lord, please let our son be in an orphanage where he is picked up, loved on, and talked to." When the doctor from UAB was talking to me she said, "Abby, based on the measurements he has and how on track he is developmentally, I can tell he is in a good baby home. One where he has been PICKED UP, LOVED ON, AND TALKED TO." When she repeated back to me word for word the prayer that I prayed over our baby for so many months, I lost it. She probably thought I was crazy, but it might has well have been Jesus himself saying "Don't worry. I'm here. I've been here the whole time. I've heard you. I have your baby in my hands and he is going to be okay."
We are going to be traveling in a few weeks to meet our new baby. We still have a LONG way to go, especially financially to bring him home...One thing God has shown me through this whole process so far though is that He is listening, He is faithful, and that it's in His hands-- not mine. My favorite Bible verse is Colossians 1:17: He is above all things, and in Him all things hold together. God gave me this verse shortly before we decided to adopt, and now I know why.
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