On My Mind

This week has been....consuming for me. My heart has really just been preoccupied with the fact that our baby is way over the ocean somewhere. Based on the age of child we want and the timeline we have been given for the adoption, chances are he has already been born and is in an orphanage in Russia. I haven't been able to shake the feeling of worry for him. It reminds me a lot of the way I have worried about my biological children when I left them after they were first born. Worrying about if they were crying or what they were doing at some random moment of the day. That's where my heart is now....wondering at random moments what he's doing or who's holding him or if he's warm or if he's being talked to. I just keep praying for him constantly that God has placed a caregiver in his life that has a heart for him. Someone that will love him and hold him and talk to him. I have been reminding myself though that God is the defender of the weak that "they are week, but He is strong". I have just been resting in that this week. Knowing that God has his hand on his life and that He will watch over him and be his comforter until we can get him home.